I am now adjusting to life out of college. There is no massive schedule. I now can't predict what the next day will bring, and I now have to choose my tasks. Time is now more easily wasted.

I feel as if I've been eating fairy cake.

I'm also struggling with old/new environments. Small migrains from my family's woodstove has reduced me to almost-stupor many times over the last two months-- clear thought has often just been out of arm's reach as I stare at the computer and, frustrated, try to do something, while my family tries not be frustrated that I'm spending so much time using my laptop yet accomplish so little. At least I understand now.

Of course, February/March has always been my least productive time. I can't remember the last time I spent this period at anything above the minimum level of productivity.

I have to make some choices, find some goals to focus on, for which to settle into a discipline. Now I can. For the last two months, I've been checking off many less-than-exciting must-do items. I could do it for another month, to be honest. But at last I can chart my primary efforts.

It's just frustrating to have to discard or overhaul so many of the mental disciplines I carefully honed over the last 3.5 years.

Ah well. Heigh ho.